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Thursday, May 30, 2013

Handling it is not Possible

God will never give you more than you can handle.

Thats what "they" say.

Well frankly I don't believe it.

Do you recall those nights you spent in the fetal position balling your eyes out trying to distract yourself from the carouse wheel of thoughts going through your mind, replaying terrible conversations, attempting to fight back random outbursts, having unnecessary fights and complete and utter breakdowns, I find it very hard to believe that any of that represents ANY version of "handling" it.

Will you live through this? Yes.

More than likely it won't kill you.

But Is it more than you can handle?  Yes. ABSOLUTELY.

I am not that strong.  (I'm also slightly dramatic...)

I've been in depressing situations before.  I worked for the Devil Wears Prada back in my New York days and thought I'd never be the same after that experience.  Yet somehow the human psyche is resilient and I made it back to myself.

But during that time did I handle it?  No way.  I was angry, I cried, I got depressed, I GOT ZITS!

Now don't get me wrong I don't think God threw me under the bus or anything.  I just feel like maybe that saying is a little off.

Like maybe...

God will never give you more than HE can handle.

Because I can't handle much of anything.  But WITH God...well we all know my stance on that one.

With God (the internet...and lately lots of coffee) ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!